tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1098328258063270691.post3930928052294010669..comments2021-01-16T09:55:24.910-08:00Comments on The Holding Pattern: SerenityThe Defunct Curatorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09674394011297271547noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1098328258063270691.post-68659880807825486852012-07-05T21:25:48.918-07:002012-07-05T21:25:48.918-07:00I hope that the storm has passed and sunny days ar...I hope that the storm has passed and sunny days are your constant companion I too suffer from cronic health problems where there seems no be no end but peace comes in strange ways always look for itAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1098328258063270691.post-26666099915087721222011-04-26T09:31:01.860-07:002011-04-26T09:31:01.860-07:00My dear sweet Curator (mind you there is no Defunc...My dear sweet Curator (mind you there is no Defunct preceeding your title. we must think positive thoughts), <br /><br />I am so very sad to read this post. Not because it is hopeless, but because you feel that way today :( What a challenge you have been handed this last year, and what a Polly Positive you have tried to be. Give yourself the chance to moan and groan. Because one must. It isn't as if you are being foolish! You are sad and frustrated and have no health insurance. And that is a litle scary. And you don't want to live with snakes and scary things that go bump in the night in the little cottage where you currently are. But you have done so, and that was integral to your future. Why? Who knows? But it was. I'm a wee bit older than you, and I smile as I look back over my life at the times when I lost hope. When I was sure that there was no future for me. When I struggled to decide what change I could make to get out of what seemed a hopeless situation. <br /><br />I call it God. People call it what they may. All I know is that while I was bobbing around trying to figure out what to do, and smiling, and interviewing, and being told no, and crying, and cussing, and feeling hopeless....there was a plan. A plan I wasn't aware of (enter the hopelessness). And just as I was DONE. Just as I couldn't pay my bills, or ask for one more dime from my parents, something I never expected to happen did. And this has happened THREE times in my life. Yes THREE. Yuck!<br /><br />I will say that the last time this occurred I went on a vacation and spent all of my money and had hope that it would all work out. And until I got myself together and actually put in some effort it did not. BUT..eventually it did. <br /><br />You are changing the things that you can by continuing to try. And not giving up. Even if you give up for today (which is absolutely okay when you just need a hopeless/eat lots of cookies/drink many martinis day), you will not give up forever.<br /><br />xoxo<br />TDSShttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05724512479195083594noreply@blogger.com